I'm pissed. really pissed. I deserve better.
I'm sick and tired. I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired.
I deserve to be happy. Very happy.
Too much of Pain. Too much for too long.
And I'm not standing for it anymore.
Enough of this rollercoaster ride of emotions.
Enough of this schizophrenia of sentiments.
Enough of this melencholy.
Enough of this happiness.
Enough of this melencholy.
I deserve better...
Wednesday, September 28, 2005
Jesus, please don't pass me by
The sun charges up the mountain of the sky. The morning train rumbles through the station. The eternal routines of life sets in. I need something new this morning. I can't pray. I don't need another ritual. My dehydrated heart sends desperate signals. Waves of worry. Hopelessness. Resentment. Irritability. I need a drink.
This morning, my heart is troubled. I need answers. I'm flustered, disgruntled, and annoyed at anyone that gets in my way. "This isn't me," I tell myself. "I know I'm better than that."
I know I need Him. But I can't pray. I need answers today. But I'm not getting any. I know He won't talk to me when I'm like this. He talks to me when I'm resting, when I'm drinking in His love. When I'm swallowing His word. But I can't.
I take out my music player. I'm desperate now. The lyrics start to seep in.
"My heart it longs
My soul it thirsts for more
For more of You"
I've heard this song a million times before. But today its different.
"I'm reaching out
I'm waiting here for more
For more of You"
"Cause all I want is You
And all I need is to be here with You"
I'm paying attention now. Suddenly this song is singing my anthem.
"I'm hungry for Your fire
I'm desperate, You're my one desire
Jesus, please dont pass me by"
"I need You more than ever
I'm thirsty for a touch from Heaven
Jesus, please don't pass me by"
This is my heart's cry. I'm thristy. I'm hungry. I need you Lord. Where are you? What are you doing? Don't just dismiss me. If you're coming by my way, don't pass me by Lord. Suddenly I feel like the two blind beggers who "were sitting by the roadside, and when they heard that Jesus was going by, they shouted, 'Lord, Son of David, have mercy on us!' (Matthew 20:30)
The song continues to echo my sentiments. It simmers into the bridge now.
"Don't pass me by Lord
I'm desperate for You"
Then my heart, filled with religiosity, questions the underlying message. "Why would God ever leave you? What a stupid song, why would Jesus pass you by? Why are you calling out to Him?"
Its the essence of the song. Yes, He will 'never leave me nor forsake me' (Deuteronomy 31:6).
Yes I know that 'When I pass through the waters, He will be with me, and when I pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over me. That when I walk through the fire, I will not be burned. That the flames will not set me ablaze.' Isaiah 43:2
But today is not about knowing...
Today is not about doing...
Today is not about praying...
Today is about lying down in green pastures...
Today is about reaching out to an eternal God...
Today is about drinking in His love...
And like those blind men, I'm found lacking. I'm found wanting. I'm found thirsty. And I need Him. And the Lord is passing by. Am I going to let Him go?
This time, I'm reaching out. Jesus, please don't pass me by. 'I'm hungry for Your fire
I'm desperate, You're my one desire'. 'I need You more than ever, I'm thirsty for a touch from Heaven'. Jesus, please don't pass me by...
'The crowd rebuked them (the blind beggers) and told them to be quiet, but they shouted all the louder, "Lord, Son of David, have mercy on us!" Jesus stopped and called them. "What do you want me to do for you?" he asked.
"Lord," they answered, "we want our sight."' (Matthew 20:31-33)
Then comes my favourite part...
'Jesus had compassion on them and touched their eyes. Immediately they received their sight and followed him.' (Matthew 20:34)
And I got my answer...
"...If anyone is thirsty, let him come to me and drink. Whoever believes in me, as the Scripture has said, streams of living water will flow from within him." John 7:37-38
Like what water does to my body, He does for my soul. He trickles down the throat of my soul, flushing out my anxiety, my pains, my insecurities. My heart is moist again. My soul is calmed again. I called out to Him. And Jesus had compassion.
"When my heart was grieved and my spirit embittered, I was senseless and ignorant; I was a brute beast before you. Yet I am always with you; you hold me by my right hand. You guide me with your counsel, and afterward you will take me into glory. Whom have I in heaven but you? And earth has nothing I desire besides you. My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever." Psalm 73:21-26
This morning, my heart is troubled. I need answers. I'm flustered, disgruntled, and annoyed at anyone that gets in my way. "This isn't me," I tell myself. "I know I'm better than that."
I know I need Him. But I can't pray. I need answers today. But I'm not getting any. I know He won't talk to me when I'm like this. He talks to me when I'm resting, when I'm drinking in His love. When I'm swallowing His word. But I can't.
I take out my music player. I'm desperate now. The lyrics start to seep in.
"My heart it longs
My soul it thirsts for more
For more of You"
I've heard this song a million times before. But today its different.
"I'm reaching out
I'm waiting here for more
For more of You"
"Cause all I want is You
And all I need is to be here with You"
I'm paying attention now. Suddenly this song is singing my anthem.
"I'm hungry for Your fire
I'm desperate, You're my one desire
Jesus, please dont pass me by"
"I need You more than ever
I'm thirsty for a touch from Heaven
Jesus, please don't pass me by"
This is my heart's cry. I'm thristy. I'm hungry. I need you Lord. Where are you? What are you doing? Don't just dismiss me. If you're coming by my way, don't pass me by Lord. Suddenly I feel like the two blind beggers who "were sitting by the roadside, and when they heard that Jesus was going by, they shouted, 'Lord, Son of David, have mercy on us!' (Matthew 20:30)
The song continues to echo my sentiments. It simmers into the bridge now.
"Don't pass me by Lord
I'm desperate for You"
Then my heart, filled with religiosity, questions the underlying message. "Why would God ever leave you? What a stupid song, why would Jesus pass you by? Why are you calling out to Him?"
Its the essence of the song. Yes, He will 'never leave me nor forsake me' (Deuteronomy 31:6).
Yes I know that 'When I pass through the waters, He will be with me, and when I pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over me. That when I walk through the fire, I will not be burned. That the flames will not set me ablaze.' Isaiah 43:2
But today is not about knowing...
Today is not about doing...
Today is not about praying...
Today is about lying down in green pastures...
Today is about reaching out to an eternal God...
Today is about drinking in His love...
And like those blind men, I'm found lacking. I'm found wanting. I'm found thirsty. And I need Him. And the Lord is passing by. Am I going to let Him go?
This time, I'm reaching out. Jesus, please don't pass me by. 'I'm hungry for Your fire
I'm desperate, You're my one desire'. 'I need You more than ever, I'm thirsty for a touch from Heaven'. Jesus, please don't pass me by...
'The crowd rebuked them (the blind beggers) and told them to be quiet, but they shouted all the louder, "Lord, Son of David, have mercy on us!" Jesus stopped and called them. "What do you want me to do for you?" he asked.
"Lord," they answered, "we want our sight."' (Matthew 20:31-33)
Then comes my favourite part...
'Jesus had compassion on them and touched their eyes. Immediately they received their sight and followed him.' (Matthew 20:34)
And I got my answer...
"...If anyone is thirsty, let him come to me and drink. Whoever believes in me, as the Scripture has said, streams of living water will flow from within him." John 7:37-38
Like what water does to my body, He does for my soul. He trickles down the throat of my soul, flushing out my anxiety, my pains, my insecurities. My heart is moist again. My soul is calmed again. I called out to Him. And Jesus had compassion.
"When my heart was grieved and my spirit embittered, I was senseless and ignorant; I was a brute beast before you. Yet I am always with you; you hold me by my right hand. You guide me with your counsel, and afterward you will take me into glory. Whom have I in heaven but you? And earth has nothing I desire besides you. My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever." Psalm 73:21-26
Monday, September 26, 2005
Distractions
I got this in an email a while back, take a read...
The Devil's Convention
Satan called a world wide convention. In his opening address to his demons, he said, "We can't keep the Christians from going to church. We can't keep them from reading their Bibles and knowing the truth. We can't even keep them from their values. But we can do something else."
"We can keep them from forming an intimate, abiding relationship experience in Christ. If they gain that connection with Jesus, our power over them is broken."
"So let them go to church, let them have their conservative lifestyles, but steal their time, so they can't gain that experience in Jesus Christ. This is what I want you to do, demons."
"Distract them from gaining hold of their Savior and maintaining that vital connection throughout their day!" "How shall we do this?" shouted his angels. "Keep them busy in the non-essentials of life and invent unnumbered schemes to occupy their minds, he answered.
"Tempt them to spend, spend, spend, then borrow, borrow, borrow. Convince wives to go to work for long hours and husbands to work 6 or 7 days a week, 10-12 hours a day, so they can afford their lifestyles. Keep them from spending time with their children. As their family fragments, soon their homes will offer no escape from pressures of work.
"Overstimulate their minds so that they cannot hear that still small voice. Entice them to play the radio or cd player whenever they drive, to keep the TV, VCD, CDs, and the PCs going constantly in their homes.
"Fill their coffee tables with magazines and newspapers. Pound their minds with news 24 hours a day. Invade their driving moments with billboards. Flood their mailboxes with junk mail, sweepstakes, mail-order catalogues, and every kind of newsletter and promotional offering free products, services and false hopes.
"Even in their recreation, let them be excessive. Have them return from their recreation exhausted, disquieted, and unprepared for the coming week. Don't let them go out in nature to reflect on God's wonders. Send them to amusement parks, sporting events, concerts and clubs instead."
"And when they meet for their spiritual fellowship, involve them in gossip and small talk so that they leave with troubled consciences and unsettled emotion. Let them be involved in soul-winning. But crowd their lives with so many good causes that they have no time to seek power from Christ. Soon they will be working in their own strength, sacrificing their health and family for the good of the cause."
It was quite a convention in the end. And the demons went eagerly to their assignments causing Christians everywhere to get busy, busy, busy and rush here and there. Has the devil been successful at his scheme? You be the judge.
Satan's goal is to take our hearts and minds off Christ then steer us toward the cares of the world. God wants us to enjoy life, but He must be first! If we are too busy for God, then we are TOO BUSY!
The Devil's Convention
Satan called a world wide convention. In his opening address to his demons, he said, "We can't keep the Christians from going to church. We can't keep them from reading their Bibles and knowing the truth. We can't even keep them from their values. But we can do something else."
"We can keep them from forming an intimate, abiding relationship experience in Christ. If they gain that connection with Jesus, our power over them is broken."
"So let them go to church, let them have their conservative lifestyles, but steal their time, so they can't gain that experience in Jesus Christ. This is what I want you to do, demons."
"Distract them from gaining hold of their Savior and maintaining that vital connection throughout their day!" "How shall we do this?" shouted his angels. "Keep them busy in the non-essentials of life and invent unnumbered schemes to occupy their minds, he answered.
"Tempt them to spend, spend, spend, then borrow, borrow, borrow. Convince wives to go to work for long hours and husbands to work 6 or 7 days a week, 10-12 hours a day, so they can afford their lifestyles. Keep them from spending time with their children. As their family fragments, soon their homes will offer no escape from pressures of work.
"Overstimulate their minds so that they cannot hear that still small voice. Entice them to play the radio or cd player whenever they drive, to keep the TV, VCD, CDs, and the PCs going constantly in their homes.
"Fill their coffee tables with magazines and newspapers. Pound their minds with news 24 hours a day. Invade their driving moments with billboards. Flood their mailboxes with junk mail, sweepstakes, mail-order catalogues, and every kind of newsletter and promotional offering free products, services and false hopes.
"Even in their recreation, let them be excessive. Have them return from their recreation exhausted, disquieted, and unprepared for the coming week. Don't let them go out in nature to reflect on God's wonders. Send them to amusement parks, sporting events, concerts and clubs instead."
"And when they meet for their spiritual fellowship, involve them in gossip and small talk so that they leave with troubled consciences and unsettled emotion. Let them be involved in soul-winning. But crowd their lives with so many good causes that they have no time to seek power from Christ. Soon they will be working in their own strength, sacrificing their health and family for the good of the cause."
It was quite a convention in the end. And the demons went eagerly to their assignments causing Christians everywhere to get busy, busy, busy and rush here and there. Has the devil been successful at his scheme? You be the judge.
Satan's goal is to take our hearts and minds off Christ then steer us toward the cares of the world. God wants us to enjoy life, but He must be first! If we are too busy for God, then we are TOO BUSY!
Tuesday, September 20, 2005
Bums of the Office
Here we are (me and kev).
Born to be Kings.
We're the Princes of the office. *music goes awry*
Well, thats when everyone else is away.
Just finished watching the last episode of One Tree Hill just now (yes, I watched it in the office). Very sad. *sigh* Made me think of things as usual. Somehow One Tree Hill makes me think more than any other show (as if watching The OC is gonna fluster any brain cells). Kev agrees. He watches it too. It's all his fault actually that I'm addicted. Damn you Kev.
How do they come up with all these one-liners? 'People always leave' or 'Sometimes they come back'. Or how about 'If getting what you want is tragic, then give me tragedy'. *sigh* Damn you One Tree Hill...
Born to be Kings.
We're the Princes of the office. *music goes awry*
Well, thats when everyone else is away.
Just finished watching the last episode of One Tree Hill just now (yes, I watched it in the office). Very sad. *sigh* Made me think of things as usual. Somehow One Tree Hill makes me think more than any other show (as if watching The OC is gonna fluster any brain cells). Kev agrees. He watches it too. It's all his fault actually that I'm addicted. Damn you Kev.
How do they come up with all these one-liners? 'People always leave' or 'Sometimes they come back'. Or how about 'If getting what you want is tragic, then give me tragedy'. *sigh* Damn you One Tree Hill...
Saturday, September 17, 2005
My Dil Goes Mmmm...
Watched Salaam Namaste yesterday. Listening to My Dil Goes Mmmm now. Such an emotional roller-coaster. The plot was a tad bit weak. The twists and turns? Predictable. Chemistry? Ok la. But oh, what a loveable movie. Uplifting at times, yet so sad at others. Realities of life? Absolutely! You have no idea how many times it went up, then down, then up, then down again. What I loved about it was how real it was. So many times in the movie I was led to moments in my past that connected to the movie. When the song My Dil Goes Mmmm (you can so tell that was my favourite song from the movie right?) I was led to remember all the good times I've had with you know who la ;P No! Not Raju!
At the end of the movie, everyone was humming along to the tunes of the songs in the movie. I was humming along as well and just felt like dancing in the middle of nowhere. It does that to you. It's so uplifting, makes you feel like you're in love again *sigh* I'm a romantic, so sue me! (I'll probably romance you out of that one too :P)
Ok ok, so you want to know what the movie is about rite? You can make your way down to http://www1.yashrajfilms.com/. Heh, ok la, I'll tell you k? Set in Melbourne, Nick (Saif Ali Khan) and Amber -pronounced as Umbar (The ever irresistible Preeti) are two singles who are happy living their lives as that. Nick is a Chef who is late for an interview with Amber who is a Radio DJ on the station 'Salaam Namaste' (I can hear the Ooos and Ahhhs people, keep it down >:( Amber gets angry and slams him on live radio. So he calls her up on live radio to tell her off, but it turns out to be a fighting match and radio world is delighted. However, they happen to meet at a friends party and they click while not knowing who each other really is. To cut the long story short, they end up finding out who each other is, then they fall in love (and out and then in and then out... you get the drift). I dun want to get into too much detail but the movie is super funny and highly enjoyable. The 3 hours passed by without me feeling the numbness in my butt. So it has to be good right? It is, so go watch and tell me I'm right.
Oh, and try not to dance in the middle of nowhere after the movie!
At the end of the movie, everyone was humming along to the tunes of the songs in the movie. I was humming along as well and just felt like dancing in the middle of nowhere. It does that to you. It's so uplifting, makes you feel like you're in love again *sigh* I'm a romantic, so sue me! (I'll probably romance you out of that one too :P)
Ok ok, so you want to know what the movie is about rite? You can make your way down to http://www1.yashrajfilms.com/. Heh, ok la, I'll tell you k? Set in Melbourne, Nick (Saif Ali Khan) and Amber -pronounced as Umbar (The ever irresistible Preeti) are two singles who are happy living their lives as that. Nick is a Chef who is late for an interview with Amber who is a Radio DJ on the station 'Salaam Namaste' (I can hear the Ooos and Ahhhs people, keep it down >:( Amber gets angry and slams him on live radio. So he calls her up on live radio to tell her off, but it turns out to be a fighting match and radio world is delighted. However, they happen to meet at a friends party and they click while not knowing who each other really is. To cut the long story short, they end up finding out who each other is, then they fall in love (and out and then in and then out... you get the drift). I dun want to get into too much detail but the movie is super funny and highly enjoyable. The 3 hours passed by without me feeling the numbness in my butt. So it has to be good right? It is, so go watch and tell me I'm right.
Oh, and try not to dance in the middle of nowhere after the movie!
Tuesday, September 13, 2005
What Will I Choose?
It's quiet. It's early. My coffee is hot. The sky is still black.
The world is still asleep. The day is coming. In a few moments the day will arrive.
It will roar down the track with the rising of the sun.
The stillness of the dawn will be exchanged for the noise of the day.
The calm of solitude will be replaced by the pounding pace of the human race.
The refuge of the early morning will be invaded by decisions to be made and deadlines to be met. For the next twelve hours I will be exposed to the day's demands.
It is now that I must make a choice.
Because of Calvary, I'm free to choose. And so I choose…
I choose love
No occasion justifies hatred;
No injustice warrants bitterness.
I choose love.
Today I will love God and what God loves.
I choose joy
I will invite my God to be the God of circumstance.
I will refuse the temptation to be cynical... the tool of the lazy
thinker.
I will refuse to see people as anything less than human beings, created by God.
I will refuse to see any problems anything less than an opportunity to see God.
I choose peace
I will live forgiven. I will live to forgive.
I choose patience
I will overlook the inconveniences of the world.
Rather than complain that the wait is too long, I will thank God for getting a moment to pray.
Instead of clenching my fist at new assignments, I will face them with joy and courage.
I choose kindness
I will be kind to the poor, for they are alone.
Kind to the rich, for they are afraid.
And kind to the unkind, for such is how God has treated me.
I choose goodness
I will go without before I take dishonest gain.
I will be overlooked before I will boast.
I will confess before I will accuse.
I choose goodness.
I choose faithfulness
Today I will keep my promises.
My debtors will not regret their trust.
My associates will not question my word.
My wife will not question my love.
And my children will never fear that father will not come home.
I choose gentleness
Nothing is won by force. I choose to be gentle.
If I raise my voice may it be only in praise.
If I clench my fist, may it be only in prayer.
If I make a demand, may it be only of myself.
I choose self-control
I am a spiritual being.
I refuse to let what will rot, rule the eternal. I choose self-control.
I will be drunk only by joy.
I will be impassioned only by my faith.
I will be influenced only by God.
I will be taught only by Christ.
I choose self-control.
Love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control.
To Him I commit my day.
If I succeed, I will give thanks.
If I fail, I will seek His grace.
And then, when this day is done,
I will place my head on my pillow and rest.
Love is patient, love is kind.
It does not envy, it does not boast,
it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking,
it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails.
1 Corinthians13:4-8
The world is still asleep. The day is coming. In a few moments the day will arrive.
It will roar down the track with the rising of the sun.
The stillness of the dawn will be exchanged for the noise of the day.
The calm of solitude will be replaced by the pounding pace of the human race.
The refuge of the early morning will be invaded by decisions to be made and deadlines to be met. For the next twelve hours I will be exposed to the day's demands.
It is now that I must make a choice.
Because of Calvary, I'm free to choose. And so I choose…
I choose love
No occasion justifies hatred;
No injustice warrants bitterness.
I choose love.
Today I will love God and what God loves.
I choose joy
I will invite my God to be the God of circumstance.
I will refuse the temptation to be cynical... the tool of the lazy
thinker.
I will refuse to see people as anything less than human beings, created by God.
I will refuse to see any problems anything less than an opportunity to see God.
I choose peace
I will live forgiven. I will live to forgive.
I choose patience
I will overlook the inconveniences of the world.
Rather than complain that the wait is too long, I will thank God for getting a moment to pray.
Instead of clenching my fist at new assignments, I will face them with joy and courage.
I choose kindness
I will be kind to the poor, for they are alone.
Kind to the rich, for they are afraid.
And kind to the unkind, for such is how God has treated me.
I choose goodness
I will go without before I take dishonest gain.
I will be overlooked before I will boast.
I will confess before I will accuse.
I choose goodness.
I choose faithfulness
Today I will keep my promises.
My debtors will not regret their trust.
My associates will not question my word.
My wife will not question my love.
And my children will never fear that father will not come home.
I choose gentleness
Nothing is won by force. I choose to be gentle.
If I raise my voice may it be only in praise.
If I clench my fist, may it be only in prayer.
If I make a demand, may it be only of myself.
I choose self-control
I am a spiritual being.
I refuse to let what will rot, rule the eternal. I choose self-control.
I will be drunk only by joy.
I will be impassioned only by my faith.
I will be influenced only by God.
I will be taught only by Christ.
I choose self-control.
Love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control.
To Him I commit my day.
If I succeed, I will give thanks.
If I fail, I will seek His grace.
And then, when this day is done,
I will place my head on my pillow and rest.
Love is patient, love is kind.
It does not envy, it does not boast,
it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking,
it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails.
1 Corinthians13:4-8
Mom...
Great, we're moving house. Why am I so upset about it? Cause I just came back home after a 5 year exile (due to a fight with my step-dad). Why are we moving? Cause my parents are getting a divorce. I love this house, even though I've spent so much of time away from it. It's big, and spacious, and a home I can really be proud of.
Do I really have a say about things? No, not really. But at least I can complain... right? *sigh* I know this whole divorce isn't the nicest thing to happen to my mom and the last thing she wants is to move too. I really don't know how she does it. All her life, she's been abused either physically or mentally. First by her dad, then her first husband (my real dad) and then by her second husband. Where does she find so much strength to continue living the way she does?
I actually admire her strength and zest for life. She admits that getting this divorce is going to be difficult for her, but she says she needs to get it anyway. Why? Cause her children can't go on living with a violent drunkard man. But in effect, she's losing someone she loves. She's losing her companion in her old age. But she's doing it cause enough is enough and cause she loves her children. Thats what I call selflessness.
I mean, anyone in their old age could just throw a tantrum (yes even at that age) and insist that want to end up being with that person simply because of a fear of growing old alone. But my mom, even at this age, insists that she wants whats best for her children.
I love you mom. You're the best.
Do I really have a say about things? No, not really. But at least I can complain... right? *sigh* I know this whole divorce isn't the nicest thing to happen to my mom and the last thing she wants is to move too. I really don't know how she does it. All her life, she's been abused either physically or mentally. First by her dad, then her first husband (my real dad) and then by her second husband. Where does she find so much strength to continue living the way she does?
I actually admire her strength and zest for life. She admits that getting this divorce is going to be difficult for her, but she says she needs to get it anyway. Why? Cause her children can't go on living with a violent drunkard man. But in effect, she's losing someone she loves. She's losing her companion in her old age. But she's doing it cause enough is enough and cause she loves her children. Thats what I call selflessness.
I mean, anyone in their old age could just throw a tantrum (yes even at that age) and insist that want to end up being with that person simply because of a fear of growing old alone. But my mom, even at this age, insists that she wants whats best for her children.
I love you mom. You're the best.
Wednesday, September 07, 2005
The Party
Ever wondered how when bad things come, they turn up in a package? I mean, how is it that when something bad comes, it brings it's friends along and you end up having a pretty bad party.
I was having one of those parties over the weekend. Actually, it started on Wednesday and it just snowballed till Sunday. But the party climaxed over the weekend and boy, all i wanted was the week-to-end!
Stange thing about these parties? Everyone around you is having them too. So you can't really give them a call to help you out. So you decide to look upwards and *tadah!* you suddenly have an avenue to vent your frustrations on. "It's all His fault that I'm in this mess." "Why did You let all this happen?" "Stop helping the people in Somalia, I need help right now!"
Suddenly, God enters the scene. Who lets Him enter? We do. And when do we do so? When the 'bad times gang' turns up to PAAAARTAY! "You screwed up Lord, how could you let these *points to the gang* happen to me?" God is at fault. He screwed up. He messed up. And now you've invited Him over, He's at the scene finally, the culprit is finally here. But He's not allowed in, He's just here for an interrogation.
[J]: Why did you allow this to happen?
[J]: Where were you when i needed you to help?
[J]: Answer me! Whats wrong with you? Aren't you supposed to be good?
You know, David himself interrogated God on a number of occasions.
My soul is in anguish.
How long, O LORD, how long?
Psalm 6:3
He too felt anguish.
I am worn out from groaning;
all night long I flood my bed with weeping
and drench my couch with tears.
Psalm 6:6
David knew anguish. David interrogated God. David let God into the party and God turned his situation around. Eh? What's that last bit? -Dun be lazy, it's in print, just read it again - In the same Psalm, David ends off with
8 Away from me, all you who do evil,
for the LORD has heard my weeping.
9 The LORD has heard my cry for mercy;
the LORD accepts my prayer.
10 All my enemies will be ashamed and dismayed;
they will turn back in sudden disgrace.
David knew only God could change his situation. Only God could turn mistakes into masterpieces. And although he was in anguish, and he interrogated God, he also decided to trust in Him.
What happened to David? What became of him? David overcame all who came against him. He defeated all his enemies. David became the most successful King Israel ever had. He wrote in Psalm 23:6
Surely goodness and love will follow me
all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the LORD
forever.
There was a new party in David's life. It was called 'The Goodness and Love' party. Timing? 'All the days of my life.' And it was held in the 'House of the Lord'. Chao people, I've got a party to go to.
I was having one of those parties over the weekend. Actually, it started on Wednesday and it just snowballed till Sunday. But the party climaxed over the weekend and boy, all i wanted was the week-to-end!
Stange thing about these parties? Everyone around you is having them too. So you can't really give them a call to help you out. So you decide to look upwards and *tadah!* you suddenly have an avenue to vent your frustrations on. "It's all His fault that I'm in this mess." "Why did You let all this happen?" "Stop helping the people in Somalia, I need help right now!"
Suddenly, God enters the scene. Who lets Him enter? We do. And when do we do so? When the 'bad times gang' turns up to PAAAARTAY! "You screwed up Lord, how could you let these *points to the gang* happen to me?" God is at fault. He screwed up. He messed up. And now you've invited Him over, He's at the scene finally, the culprit is finally here. But He's not allowed in, He's just here for an interrogation.
[J]: Why did you allow this to happen?
[J]: Where were you when i needed you to help?
[J]: Answer me! Whats wrong with you? Aren't you supposed to be good?
You know, David himself interrogated God on a number of occasions.
My soul is in anguish.
How long, O LORD, how long?
Psalm 6:3
He too felt anguish.
I am worn out from groaning;
all night long I flood my bed with weeping
and drench my couch with tears.
Psalm 6:6
David knew anguish. David interrogated God. David let God into the party and God turned his situation around. Eh? What's that last bit? -Dun be lazy, it's in print, just read it again - In the same Psalm, David ends off with
8 Away from me, all you who do evil,
for the LORD has heard my weeping.
9 The LORD has heard my cry for mercy;
the LORD accepts my prayer.
10 All my enemies will be ashamed and dismayed;
they will turn back in sudden disgrace.
David knew only God could change his situation. Only God could turn mistakes into masterpieces. And although he was in anguish, and he interrogated God, he also decided to trust in Him.
What happened to David? What became of him? David overcame all who came against him. He defeated all his enemies. David became the most successful King Israel ever had. He wrote in Psalm 23:6
Surely goodness and love will follow me
all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the LORD
forever.
There was a new party in David's life. It was called 'The Goodness and Love' party. Timing? 'All the days of my life.' And it was held in the 'House of the Lord'. Chao people, I've got a party to go to.
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